The Cross Shall Stay For Now

I have steadfastly avoided this topic but I feel I must "come out" now. I shall either alienate my standard readers or cement those. This is nothing if not confusing for me and for you.

I am an agnostic. I am not an atheist. I am not indicating there is no God; I have simply not felt what so many of you feel or have felt; I am not denying God. I am simply indicating that, for me, God has not taken me up and provided me with a clear path. Some days I wake up and wonder what is wrong with me. Some days I wake up and think I am free. Some days I wake up and feel I am completely lost. Some days I wake up and wonder what is wrong with me that I cannot feel a compulsion, a need, a drive, to find a greater spiritual level.

But on the other hand, I believe, that does not diminish those who feel their spiritual drives. I envy you, in truth. I wish I could feel something here but I have not yet been overtaken. In the meantime I realize that I must, in terms of religion, "fish or cut bait" so to speak.

And I have clearly come down on the side of Christianity.

I look at history and I look at the history of my country specifically, and I examine material in the public domain and have decided that I either resolve to support Christianity or Judaism or I leave myself exposed to the evil in the world.

These are the two predominant religions in the country I inhabit.

And I have also examined the basic tenets of these religions and have determined that their core foundations are such that I can support them. How can one not support the inherent GOOD that exists in western religions? How can one not support the clear, common sense, day-by-day tenets of the Ten Commandments, for example?

Clearly, there are those who cannot. I can. And I do. I just lack. . .

I wish I knew.

There is a Basic Good in religion such that I can and will support it on so many western levels.

Which is why I post about this in a positive fashion:

SAN DIEGO — In the best legal news that defenders of the cross atop Mt. Soledad have received in years, the U.S. Supreme Court on Friday delayed its removal until legal appeals in the state and federal courts are resolved.

Justice Anthony M. Kennedy, acting on a petition filed by the city, also suggested that the high court might hear the case when the appeals are completed. He added that the court might be influenced by the fact that Congress has passed legislation permitting the cross to be designated a national war memorial.

One point I simply do not understand:

Given the innate goodness of religion, why would persons want to eliminate the symbols of religion, historic and otherwise, that serve to cement and preserve not BAD thoughts, but GOOD thoughts?

I am not incapable of sorting good from bad. I have already determined: Islam bad. Christianity good.

I have no problem in differentiating this difference.

When I say "God bless America" or "God bless you," I mean it. I just wish I could feel smited with a euphoria or a drive that so many others feel. I can only but feel diminished. I'm not necessarily closed; I am simply not struck.

That the Mt. Soledad cross will stay for now? That can only be a good thing.

It is a matter of survival.

And this from an agnostic. Something I'll wager you may have suspected all along.

Okay.

Hit me.



BZ